The middle child was a bit sullen during the short break in Burgundy. I went for a walk with her on Monday evening and it came out about how she didn't like car trips in which there was lots of traffic.
And then she recalled a trip two summers ago in which I drove from London up to Lancashire to see an old university mate. Once there promptly I effectively broke down and spent most of the time there recovering. Awful. So she cried about how I didn't go out with her and her siblings and my mum.
I did explain that the summer had been difficult with my dad's death.
I told her we would go back to Paris on Tuesday evening so that we could spend her birthday out of a car.
So the birthday has been a range of treats. Lunch out, Star Wars and bits of homework for school on Thursday.
My treat to myself was to get my dad's wallet repaired since it had become rather forlorn in the year or so that I've been using it.
The shop where I took it has fixed it but lost it.
The man in the shop told me it was either in the bag of some other client and they are waiting for them to call in or it is lost in the atelier.
They are waiting for it to turn up. He didn't think it had been stolen. It had just got lost. I didn't quite burst into tears but was pretty upset.
It may well appear. So for the moment I am using another of dad's old wallets and one of his change purses.
The loss of the wallet left me rather discombobulated. It wasn't an expensive piece. And at least it was lost while I was trying to care for it.
Perhaps it will be found. If not then I guess they'll have to replace it somehow. But it wasn't very expensive. We'll have to see what the gesture is.
I am a sentimental one. I mean it is me who has adorned the wallet with meaning. If I am riven by its departure then how would I be if I lost something of real value?
It's not worth becoming too ponderous about it. An error has been made. Frothing and foaming about it won't bring the wallet back. I was trying to do the right thing.
That's not learned at school, it's learned from parents. The spirit is the key for the next few days.